December

what a lonely december, an uneventful one too. so different compared to the one last year. nothing planned for christmas and nothing planned for new year's eve. piece of shit. i'd do many things just to be back where i was last year. church camp then holiday in hongkong. sigh, i really really despise this feeling. beginning to think this year wasn't such a great year afterall. haizzz.

Have a nice day

walks by the beach /sunny sunday mornings when we go out as a family for breakfast or brunch/carefree weekdays. /talking with friends, being happy and laughing and good conversation /car rides along bukit timah road, seeing the shadows of the trees above us dance around the seats/lying on my bed listening to the classical channel/ laughing at my mum's jokes/ both our families going for brunch/ watching movies with my classmates/ taking pictures/ playing guitar in my sunlit room/ chilling in bed with Muse on repeat...

ahhhh...
unfortunately, school seems to be the only thing that;s been going on..
festive season.. and i'm having so much stuff to study for.

cya guys/

Figurehead

this is me, kidding myself

that everything is fine

that everything is great

that we won't destroy ourselves

can we escape?

can we survive?

this terrible fate

controlled by hate

can we escape?

can we survive?

this terrible world

this hopeless waste.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNON!

November stars

gosh. its november already!? this year practically flew by.. what up!? anyways.. i am .
continously changing, reinventing and improving myself. glad for that..through all these. i take these 'situations' as buffers, that will smoothen me out, and make me shine. so that one day. one fine day.. i'll realise all that happened for a reason.. right now, i need an awesome distraction. ahhh... you too cute luh! huahuahua. anyways, my favorite season is a-coming! christmas. can't wait.. just love it.. hope this year's one is nice. just like last years.
ralph... OUT!

white lights, i dont think so

the past 3 years read within the span of a Keane album. reading up on my past, the archives of my youth. the records of my stupidity. testimonies to what i've seen, felt, understood and came to understand. what really strikes me is the loss of friendships and the start of new ones. in the past 3 years. i have nearly severed 2 friendships but i came out of it. stronger, myself and the relationship with those 2 people. in the past 3 years i've come to know numerous friends, but none as paramount as you. honestly. and friendships unable to continue due to geographical separation. this blog has seen many bitter days. many happy ones as well. and a reminder to what i was and what i turned out to be. i know. its not the most interesting neither the most well designed. but reading up on my history... reminiscing bout my friendships. it's really heartwarming....

whatup.

october

as we age. we tend to look back on our lives. and we ponder.. how we got this far. would our lives be better now if we changed something back then? would we appreciate going through a phase and coming out a better person. or prefer not having gone through it at all.. due to fear of losing a friend orchanging an ideal maybe? our lives can be broken into chapters, everytime we begin a new one.. we look back in nostalgia at the previous one.. even if the previous one was terrible. you'd still be happy you got through it. sometimes you even laugh to have felt that way during that time of your life.. hmmm. there is an impending change.. im not sure if it will go through.. but it'd really change things. if i knew bout this 2 years ago i'd be ecstatic.. but now.. having met you.. im not really sure if i'm eager for this.. there are always the pros and cons.. and i wonder which will outweigh the other. but in the end. i'll take things in my stride. i will not overthink things and i will always look to God and know he's in charge of things, and at the end of day.. i wont worry so much cus i know he's got my back.

whatup.

Redemption

the paranoia is eating me up

distrust and assumptions

this is not right

i got to get it in

i got to get it right.