white lights, i dont think so
the past 3 years read within the span of a Keane album. reading up on my past, the archives of my youth. the records of my stupidity. testimonies to what i've seen, felt, understood and came to understand. what really strikes me is the loss of friendships and the start of new ones. in the past 3 years. i have nearly severed 2 friendships but i came out of it. stronger, myself and the relationship with those 2 people. in the past 3 years i've come to know numerous friends, but none as paramount as you. honestly. and friendships unable to continue due to geographical separation. this blog has seen many bitter days. many happy ones as well. and a reminder to what i was and what i turned out to be. i know. its not the most interesting neither the most well designed. but reading up on my history... reminiscing bout my friendships. it's really heartwarming....whatup.
october
as we age. we tend to look back on our lives. and we ponder.. how we got this far. would our lives be better now if we changed something back then? would we appreciate going through a phase and coming out a better person. or prefer not having gone through it at all.. due to fear of losing a friend orchanging an ideal maybe? our lives can be broken into chapters, everytime we begin a new one.. we look back in nostalgia at the previous one.. even if the previous one was terrible. you'd still be happy you got through it. sometimes you even laugh to have felt that way during that time of your life.. hmmm. there is an impending change.. im not sure if it will go through.. but it'd really change things. if i knew bout this 2 years ago i'd be ecstatic.. but now.. having met you.. im not really sure if i'm eager for this.. there are always the pros and cons.. and i wonder which will outweigh the other. but in the end. i'll take things in my stride. i will not overthink things and i will always look to God and know he's in charge of things, and at the end of day.. i wont worry so much cus i know he's got my back.whatup.
